finally 2mrw is holiday (@o@) its been so long ody since we've started a day off (few days actually =p) during On Block time~idk....this few days wuz drivin me crazy cuz of my hectic lifestyle~all the demo room duties (for class practical),JoyMag thingy (its unfair!! 2 weeks?),AVA thingy (TT..TT),procedures all the endless ongoing list of chores that will nvr stop 2 b printed out~exhausting~yet one thing that bother me the most z the ppl around me r juz plain fake!~y can u just b honest & tell me in straight 2 my face instead of badmouthing (its equal 2 backstabbing too u dumbass) behind my back!!!ewww~ystrdy while i wuz studying for exam (its 2 more weeks to go~yikess) i felt like cryin cuz i really cld x stand it anymore~i juz x know hw 2 voice out my dissapointments~good thing z everytime a 'friendship' made me feel stressed up I end up writin crap poem unconsciously bout it~heh heh heh heh..shall jot it down in my blog in case i get amnesia one day~
Some time I wish I could read other peoples' mind,
But they say be careful of what you wish for,
Why does it seems my friends is withdrawing themselves from me?
Guess its just my hallucination getting in its way again,
Or maybe it was true after all,
They say the longer time You spend to mix with someone
The more true color of them shall be shown to you,
Or maybe I was overreacting a bit/freaked out/too sensitive....idk
Every time when I try to be nice with a friend,
I'll be repay with false accusations,
Everytime I try to care for a friend,
I'll get all the backstabbing thingy again,
Everytime I try to be honest with a friend,
I'll end up getting badmouthed again?
Why can't anyone understand me?
Why can't anyone stand up for me?
Why can't anyone hold my back when I fall?
Why can't someone listen to my complains?
Why can't someone lend me a shoulder to cry on?
Why can't someone love me the way I are?
Its just damn frustrating,Its too devastating,
Its me,I'm all alone again~
You were brought to this world alone,
You were alone when u carve your own pathway of life,
You were alone again when you have to make the biggest decision in your life,
You were alone too when its already your time to take off later~
hahah~quite long huh~actually the truth is i dunno whether diz should be considered as a poem or a diary full with shitty metaphor~mi ahn ne' >....<
Today when it wuz noon class i wuz really prepared as I brought all my stuff 2 go back~
guess its must hv been weird 2 my friends~I'm so sorry guys if I treat any of you badly this few days~its just that I've got so much of thing to be handled and to make matter worse I can't share the burden with you because I felt it will made u guys feel guilty~as I said juz now I don't know whom shall I call friend anymore~
Then @ Kelana Jaya~went out wid dearie sis~told her i'm having so many stress(yah~as if nobody don't duh)~had KFC as dnnr~aiyarrkkk...>...< again?? seriously??
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| note that i didn't eat this alone kayh! |
Well after dnnr is going back time rt?gosh then its started to raining cats & dogs outside??
How the hell am I suppose to go back~that brilliant Sis come out wid a brilliant idea~
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Wanna go karaoke?" idk?I was dumbfounded at first cuz it never crossed my mind 2 go kBoxing today~she said "
Yah! You want to release ur stress or not?"....hahahah...finally I agreed~
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| yah! stop singing that Miley Cyrus's songs!! haha |
after that jeng jeng jeng its my turn 4 selcas!!!....click click click!!! yah!! aren't u suppose to sing??
hahah...chillaX guys~u know I won't post my own picture in my blog~hahah...just follow the link~
At first as I was too tires,stressed,restless,clueless so as a warm up just sit around & kBoxing first lol~yala u noe x too loud as it might disturd others ma ~
http://twitpic.com/2icgmq ~
Then I felt x puas as u know lor when u sing need 2 stand ma then only the lungs can expand and u can scream
AS LOUD AS U CAN lol ~
http://twitpic.com/2icjk1 ~
After that I think things got out of control a bit as the 'touch screen' (wow) could x detect our finger(duh) & we even had to change room??? hahahah~too much of Kboxing ~
http://twitpic.com/2icpkn ~
Orait after that I felt so much better~I remember omma told me no matter how terrible ur own family members was but it was them who will always be dere when u r at ur down time in ur life~owk =3 omma sarangheyo!! hahah....gonna call her after diz~aiyo misZ aRcHeeL z naggin me 2 start doin my ASSignments~yala yala i'm comin i'm comin~CIAO~
